For one thing I hate being female sometimes. I'll leave it at that. Plus there's a chance I'm sick on top of it, which sucks. <_<

I spent this weekend at 's house. We talked about a ton of things, including WSW (my in-progress story of my wolf characters) and a Harry Potter fanfic I've been working on for like two years now haha. She gave me a ton of new songs, several of which I've fallen in love with.

Including In My Arms by Plumb. She said it reminded her of Breen and Khaosi. Ohgod, it does. It's got me all wanting to draw them now. X3 (I've heard that song before, too, but I can't remember where, UGH.)

I may have to write something about Breen and Khaosi before they actually come into the story, like how he comes to be with her and Nikos. I started something ages ago, but I've still got to run it back by Akira-Illuser and see if she's alright with me submitting it up here sometime.

And y'know, I think I could see myself shipping some of my own characters someday. XD BreenxKhaosi would be interesting, seeing as he ages quickly like most demon wolves until maturity. Even though she's like 2,000 years old and he's a bit short of that number to say the least. But then again he's supposed to have hit maturity (well, "puberty") by the time the story starts... so it could work. *shrugs* That is, if it didn't seem too strange. It does seem slightly strange, but I've seen similar things done before.

Oh, if you happen to read this, Akira-Illuser, we still need to draw that silly little comic we were talking about last night. Y'know, with Kai and Windsurf. XD

I still want a Khaosi plushie soooo bad. D= Like, one that's sorta floppy and squishy and non-embroidered and about a foot long... Teal eyes might be a little hard to find, though.

Once I get some money that's not already set aside for something else, I'll have to commission someone to make me one. I would love them forever. (Or *cough* someone could commission someone to make it as a present... =3)

Oh, and I am actually finalizing Khaosi's design. Finally. It'll be the one on my deviation [link] yay. I've just got to make him a new ref sheet. *marks it on her to-do list*

Just updating a little.

I've been working like a dog these past two weeks, not even getting weekends off and basically working full time (8+ hours). And I've still got more work ahead of me-- I might not even get this weekend off either.

Needless to say it doesn't give me much time to do anything when I get home, especially since I come home so tired. And today's been extra tiring and stressful because we had an incident this morning with our birds. _{The psycobird is no more. Got eated. ;-;}

BUT BUT BUT. My pen to my new tablet has been found! That makes me feel better. Now I can work on things I owe when I get the time. Yay. And I did start drawing again today, but I stopped halfway through because I was falling asleep. XD

Night, all. I'm gonna go catch up on sleep I need baaaad. <3

I lost the pen to my tablet. ;~; My creativity is being stifled and since I don't even have any pencils at the house I can't go traditional either. I want so bad to draw again. *sighs*

So I might not be uploading for a while, at least until I can find that pen. And to think I'm even /inspired/ right now.

*sniffles*

That is all.

Well, I'm 19 today. Woohoo. But not really. XD

It's strange to think that in another year I'll be two decades old. When you say it that way it sounds /ancient/. X3

I'm working today. Two jobs. At the same time. Granted, one of them is babysitting my cousin, but still.

Gertie Lou /finally/ dropped a heifer yesterday. It's her second calf. They named her Opal, as the girl names were at "O" (they name their calves alphabetically, using bible names for the boys and 'country names' for the girls; the boys are at "L". I said the next one should be Lazarus but Nana said then no one would want to send him to the butcher for fear that he'd come back to life haha). Opal is all black like her mama. So cute. =3

Still trying to keep active with my drawing and writing, but it's hard when I don't get the time to. I am, however, still working with some of my characters. You probably won't be getting anything having to do with them though because they're rp characters. Yay. Then again, I have submitted loads of things with them anyway. I'm thinking of compiling a biiig sketchdump of my old rp characters who no longer get any love, because I rped a looot when I was younger with characters who were pretty lame. x3 They'd get complete makeovers, of course... Maybe I can do that-- a comparison of before and after, what they were like when I still rped them and what they're like when I revamp them now. That would be fuuun. And since I don't rp them anymore I might have like a mass giveaway or something so they stop being neglected so much.

Oh well. We'll see what happens.

Trying to get to all my messages, uggh. I'm really sorry, guys. I'm soooo slow, I know. D=

Ten days. I count them down. Rather casually, that is. XD

Freelancing is only fun when you actually get payed, I think. I've been on the same project of sorts for a few months now, but my paychecks have stopped altogether. I kinda wish I could do commissions even if they're super cheap... but there's never any interest from anyone. Such is life, I guess. And school's at a complete stop due to inadequate funds to even get to my Freshman year. That's super-depressing.

So basically I'm just trying to go day by day, hoping to scrounge up some money here and there. Y'know, dig through the couch in hopes that someone dropped change... <_<

But THANK GOD we got some rain! After three straight months the pastures are completely dead, but since we got about an hours' worth of rain yesterday things actually look green. I took out the house plants to get a drink and they even perked up after fifteen minutes. It's just exhilarating, the rain. We're supposed to get more today. *crosses fingers*

I went and saw HBP on Saturday. I liked it overall-- as usual it didn't follow the books, but I've taken to seeing the movies as more AU than canon. *shrugs* The ending was rather disappointing because it seemed to me like it built and built but then really fizzled out at the climax. Then again, I suppose the end was really just to set up for the last book/movie.

I'm getting restless again, feeling as though I have to keep moving and living out of my suitcase like I've been doing. I tend to get bored with everything really quickly now, always finding myself looking to the next time I've got to pack and go to another house or the next time I'm going to be stepping foot outside the door instead of being tied down.
Hmm.
How unlike me.

Not only am I restless with my living situation, but I'm restless with my art as well. That's no surprise, I guess. I just don't know what I'm doing with it anymore. All these new characters keep invading my brain, and the old concepts stand almost forgotten. I feel this need for constant transformation, especially on the part of things concerning a steady fursona. It's like... there are so many different skins to step into, and so many for so many different personalities or moods I have, and I can't stick with it. I'm considering dropping the idea altogether. =/ Still sticking with Grim, though, as an altersona.

I'm getting to my messages and to-do list. Slowly. D=